1. Nervous

    My appointment is at 2:45 for the blood specialist and I’ve been sleeping all day. I woke up this morning with a horrendous cough that agitates my chest severely. Which adds on to the fact that I’m nervous. 

    This is really the answer I’ve been waiting for since I was put on the meds to begin with. I want him to tell me the results are negative and I can only see you being on the meds for the year. Which has always been expected. 

    But what if he says otherwise? What if he says that it is positive and he starts talking about regimens of blood thinning medications for the rest of my life. 

    I am 23. I am hoping that the rest of my life is a very long time. And I don’t wanna live that very long time taking a medicine that would have me living careful for the rest of it. 

    No contact sports, being careful about bumping into stuff (which for me, is nearly impossible), no greens, no alcohol, no certain foods that have Vitamin K in em that I wouldn’t even know. Like they say no greens, but eating too many blueberries can affect you. Coumadin can cause birth defects, internal hemorrhaging, necrosis of the tissue, losing or gaining weight can affect your dosages and INR and the list goes on and on. 

    Come on. 

    The last thing I ever wanna sound is ungrateful because I could of continued to ignore my chest pains and wound up dead.

    But I wanna live. 

    So lets see what he has to say. 

    3 years ago  /  10 notes

    1. dew57nada reblogged this from iamexposed
    2. polkadotsandpassion said: i can imagine what you’re going through but i send my love your way <3
    3. iamexposed posted this

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